Life.

It sickens me that I have spent countless hours working towards bettering myself and my family's life through school, only to get online today and find a whopping 2 jobs in my desired field. I have let everything go this last month, working 50 hr weeks to get it done. Now everything is a mess.

We are behind in our bills, and as usual are planning to use our hefty tax return to bail us out. God willing, there will be enough of it to spread around. Husband is on the couch all week, he has already put in a resume at a few places, and applied for unemployment benefits. Score Husband 2, me 0. My big accomplishment for the day was folding one load of laundry. Ha ha, so sad. 

I did finally get to drop my little gal off at preschool for the first time. My husband had set everything up during my last push for hours, and my friend who was watching the kids had taken her a few times. I had not even met the teachers yet, and when I dropped her off today she wouldn't let me go. I had never had a problem with that before, the other kids couldn't wait to get rid of me. So I stayed and watched her and her class eat breakfast before I made my big break for it.  She knew something was up, and I caught her watching me as I turned for the door, she immediately started screaming as I weakly said " I love you!!! Have a nice day!"  while I was running for the door.

Thankfully she was all smiles when I returned 3 hours later to get her.