worth the weight?

How is it that I have went to school for 18 months, got good grades yet now that I am on my externship ( for for the same thing I went to school for)...NOT HAVE A CLUE.

 I guess that is the difference between book learning and actual on the job training. I am just hoping I can pull my head out soon, and feel confident enough to do a good job while I am there. I have only worked a little under ten hours and everyone in the clinic is super nice and helpful but somehow I don't yet feel comfortable putting patients in the room alone yet. So I follow people around all day like an idiot, and try to learn as much as I can.

It is actually very frustrating on my part, because I don't yet feel like I can do it alone, and I want to SO bad. I think it is the kind of thing I am going to have to just "buck up" and do and if I mess it up, then better earlier then later on in the game. Anyone have any liquid self confidence I can borrow? Wait, is that what they call alcohol ? Well that definitely won't work, and it probably wouldn't do me any favors to go and ask the Dr I am working for if he has any xanex samples he could part with either. ha ha! Guess I am on my own.  On the plus side, I run my butt off running in circles all day and not eating anything so I am bound to loose some of my leftover "baby weight".
Wish me luck!~ Love, peace and chicken grease to all of you! :)

YIPPEE!! I GOT IT!

Well once again the embroidery thaang is gonna have to wait. Putting aside my retarded unicorn to GO ON MY EXTERNSHIP! WA-HOO!

My wonderfully awesome friend is going to come and take care of the lilhouse and everything inside of it while I am working, she has decided to stay for the month. I have no way of paying her, and nothing to give her except a roast or 2 from the freezer and my eternal gratitude.

I start on Thursday, and it sounds like they are willing to work with me on hours. On the one hand I want to get in as many as I can while my friend is staying with us to help, on the other hand I don't want to burn  either of us out. We'll have to see what happens...

 I was unhappy at first with the clinic that I was being sent to,but I found out another friend of mine went there for her externship, and she really liked it! So I am excited to get my scrubs on and get to work!! :)

THANK GOD FOR AWESOME FRIENDS!

anticrafty

 So have I mentioned that I am not crafty? I try.  I try to be crafty it is just one of those things that, though I wish it came naturally to me, does not. That said: I have apparently embroidered the unicorn  upside down on the fabric. Oops!  And having absolutely no idea what I was doing, am about half way through...good thing the kids won't know the difference! Can't expect to be a whiz kid first try, I guess, huh? Damn it. :)

That is all.

Just me again.

Weekends around here have two speeds; very very slow and balls to the wall, gotta get things done NOW.

 Yesterday, and from the looks of it today, are the former rather then the latter. We lounged around pretty much all day yesterday and watched netflix. My darling dearest Hubby finally got the Wii hooked up to it, and now we pretty much have movies on demand. Think I may never get anything done again.

We finally got the Aussie Shepard pup. Well not exactly a pup, he is about a year old, so he is more like a  super clumsy pup trapped in a full grown dog body. He is beautiful and so smart, a wonderful addition to the family. The kids and I adore him. Annie, our other dog is still unsure. She likes him alright except that he is a puppy and is constantly wanting to maul and play with her. She is less then thrilled. Oh...the dog's name is "Jack" and boy did I get a giggle when I told him to "OFF"...

Also managed to go to the Wal and wander for a bit, until the point where if I did not ingest some serious xanex and soon, I was going to rip someones head off. Oh and get this, our Wal does not sell embroidery stuff. WTF? I have been toying with the idea of learning embroidery for awhile, but lacking creativity never had the gumption to commit to learning. Well no more excuses, "tis the season"!

A funny side note: husband had no idea this pg existed. Although I SWEAR I have mentioned numerous times!!~ Men! Got him thinking I am  double secret agent sneaky though...