venting...

I feel set up to fail.
I am frustrated beyond belief.
The muscle part of the anatomy class is here and I have a test tonight.

We started "learning" them, the muscles, on Monday. That is two days to learn all of the muscles, and the chemical reactions as to WHY they work...TWO DAYS...???

C'mon man...My teacher is the Dean of Health. Who while is very smart, dosen't really teach. So that pretty much leaves me staring at the pictures of my text book hoping to somehow absorb the knowledge in it ( osmosis??)

Two days?? AND THEN A TEST WORTH HALF MY DAMN GRADE?? At this point I am just hoping that I don't fail compleatly and have to take this damn class again...grrr.
Guess I better get back to it... I HATE ANATOMY...I am sure I could learn this with actual teaching and alittle more time...they all still look the same to me though. This is going to rough...

hang in there summer is almost here...

on that note...
Current mood: blessed
Well...The Mothers day trip to Wendover was a hit!

We got a killer room, and without any one to take care of, got pretty poluted!

My little bro crashed the ' girls night out theme', but hes cool so no worrys!
He almost made me laugh so hard I pee'd my pants!!!

At one point I remember just about all of my weight was on the edge of the 21 table...lol... just glad I didden't pass out in public!

BUT WE ( CAT AND I) HUNG IN THERE, FOR A COUPLE OF OLD LADYS!

Maby next time I won't get quite so messed up...( I really was pretty bad!)...BUT IT WAS FUN!

Now I am back...and stalling...I SHOULD BE studying...

In the midst of all of this confusion, I surround myself in, it is very easy to forget to just BREATHE... take a step back...and see the big picture!
Remember the reasons WHY I do the things I do...Sometimes I get caught up in the moment, and just...forget the reasons WHY...

In a few years I hope to be in a good job that I enjoy, helping people who appreciate it, and be more financally secure then we are now...( so we can add on some much needed bedrooms!)

I have to keep things in perspective, and REMEMBER that the sacrifices of today are for the future...( so I don't go nuts in the moment!)

I won't lie and say I did great on mid-term...I didden't...But I did alright. Espeshlly for the amount of studying I did, and the difficulty of the test... I got a break though!( Wendover!) And that was something I truley needed!!

Summer will be here soon. No more waking up early to rush children out the door. No more 'Mommy taxi' to and from school.
I plan to sit outside all summer with a book under my nose, and my feet inside of a kiddie pool!
Just a few more weeks!!!

HANG IN THERE EVERYONE!! SUMMER IS ALMOST HERE! I CAN FEAL IT