worth the weight?

How is it that I have went to school for 18 months, got good grades yet now that I am on my externship ( for for the same thing I went to school for)...NOT HAVE A CLUE.

 I guess that is the difference between book learning and actual on the job training. I am just hoping I can pull my head out soon, and feel confident enough to do a good job while I am there. I have only worked a little under ten hours and everyone in the clinic is super nice and helpful but somehow I don't yet feel comfortable putting patients in the room alone yet. So I follow people around all day like an idiot, and try to learn as much as I can.

It is actually very frustrating on my part, because I don't yet feel like I can do it alone, and I want to SO bad. I think it is the kind of thing I am going to have to just "buck up" and do and if I mess it up, then better earlier then later on in the game. Anyone have any liquid self confidence I can borrow? Wait, is that what they call alcohol ? Well that definitely won't work, and it probably wouldn't do me any favors to go and ask the Dr I am working for if he has any xanex samples he could part with either. ha ha! Guess I am on my own.  On the plus side, I run my butt off running in circles all day and not eating anything so I am bound to loose some of my leftover "baby weight".
Wish me luck!~ Love, peace and chicken grease to all of you! :)