this time I will actually INSERT LINK...

Ok...take mercy on this girl, and tell me HOW TO PUT THE LINK IN...CAUSE OBVIOUSLY I CAN'T FIGURE IT OUT ON MY OWN...lol...the insert link dosen't actually insert the link so...??? not really sure what to do about that one...hmmmmm...>??? anyway, hopefully you can cut and paste in the MOM SONG!!

iN HoNor Of MoTheRs DaY !!

For the rest of the world who still hasen't sceen this! Of even if you have, still funny if your a , or if you have one! (ITS THE MOM SONG!)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hX6flpUweIQ~ Just cut and paste, can't get link go to in there!

Ever feel like crying for no reason...

Well, that is where I am today.
I knew Anatomy was going to be difficult. So, why am I suprized when I start having a hard time with it. ITS HARD. EVERYONE HAS A HARD TIME WITH IT...I think I will go in for a tutoring session tomorrow night. Things are so fast paced with this school, that it would be too easy to get behind and never be able to get caught up. I HAVE TO MAKE SURE I UNDERSTAND CORRECTLY and remember my bones...I am soo sick of bones!! This chapter is kicking my butt! I walked out of class on Monday with my head spinning! There was just so much information, and it was presented so quickly... I had hoped that a few days to process the information would help...it didden't I think I am more baffeled then ever! LOL

Also, My Mother and Step-father are together again...I hope...

I found some things out that I never wanted to know...and now still wish I didden't know, and THOSE THINGS led me to believe things were over with my parents...even though it seemed my Mom was giving my stepdad a second chance....Well, I still don't know what to think, but all I can do is HOPE things are what they seem. For everyones sake, or the poop will hit the fan, as they say.

My 'girls night out' trip to Wendover is near!! ( FRIDAY) and I am excited!

My Mom is coming and maby after a few coctails we will be more open about talking 'real life ' things, such as the situation with my stepdad. OH HOW I HATE DRAMA!!!

I guess I should actually STUDY MY ANATOMY...I AM STALLING...When I know I am having a hard time of it, it seems to make it harder to study or concentrate on it... and I know I need to!! ugggg... On a more positive note, this class is now half over, and next month I will have a new one....Oh how I hope it is an easier one!!!

weekend stuff...and goodnnews/badnews???

The weekend was nice.
My nephew was being babtized on Saturday, so the whole fam-damly got all dressed up and went. It was actually kinda fun, and the kids behaved, thank god! Afterward the whole family gathered at my brother in laws house for a family lunch. (good eats!!) Afterwards my oldest son went to a sleepover at a different cousins house.

On Sunday, it seems like everyone decided to come on down and visit! First was my Dad, and he stayed a bit trying to fix my laptop internet connection( don't ask!)
Then after he left, we headed over to my in-laws to see how my father in law was doing, as he had his galbladder removed a few days ago.

We visited there for a few hours and then came home. Nearly as soon as we were home, my nephew came over to help my Huby plant...I believe he is becoming a 'plant a holic'. I guess, whatever we can't eat,can, or freeze, we could feed to the animals though, so 'plant away!!.'

Then who should show up...but my Mom and Step dad...TOGETHER...

I don't much go into personal detail about ALOT of things...this is something that is very personal and near and dear to my heart.

My Mother moved out of their house about four months ago. And is filing for the big D. My step dad has had a very hard time with this, and calls me 4-5 times a week just to talk about things. He wants her back. Knows he messed up, should have appreciated her more...exc...

I don't know exactly where my Mom stands on everything...because I can identify with my Step dad alot more, in that I DON'T WANT THEM TO GET A DIVORCE...so basiclly my mom and I ignore the situation and talk about safter subjects.



At anyrate, My step-dad called me on Saturday night to say that Mom had called him and invited him over for dinner, and a movie...
Then he called FROM MOM'S PHONE early Sunday morning...to say not to come over today (that was the plan), because they were going to go for a drive...
Then they showed up here later on that night...
DO I DARE TO HOPE???
The deal is this...My little sister ( who talks more to mom about this situation then I can) tells me that Mom just wants to be friends with Papa...
That it is just habit that when they get together she holds his hand, exc,exc...

I am afraid for my Step dad..For his heart...When Mom left he had a break down.
He ended up in the mental hospital. He is getting counseling, now. He seems to be putting his life together best that he can after losing his wife of 22 years.

Mom, on the otherhand...I hear( our grape vine is very short) she is upping her dosage of anti-depressents, and drinking more. ( just whine, but everynight...)

I am soo worried that this could be too fast too soon. FOR BOTH OF THEM.